divine.

28 09 2009

I spent most of today laying on the beach.

Late in the afternoon, the sun was so bright that I had to hold my book at just the right angle to keep my eyes from tearing.   The wind was so fierce that on more than one occasion, I felt sure my 1980s tri-fold beach chair was approaching lift-off.  The waves were so loud that I couldn’t hear the conversation of the ridiculously cute couple just a few yards away from me.

Everything combined so perfectly that I laid there wishing I was not alone.  I wanted someone next to me so I could grab their hand and tell them how sure I was that this is what Christ’s love feels like.  It is warm, cool, loud, and quiet. It is intense, frightening, lovely, and perfect all at once.

So unworthy, I am more grateful for the Lord’s grace everyday.





have you ever…

20 06 2009

rocked out to Cat Stevens as you drove down King Street at 12:30am on a Friday night with your windows down?

oh.  well i have.
it’s not as easy as rockin out to Kanye but it is still totally doable.

Also, I think I invented the word “mitadel” earlier this evening when I was telling a girl friend the type of boy that she was not allowed to set up on a blind date with me.  fyi: mitadel refers to any dude who is in the military or who went to the citadel.  I adore my girlfriends’ military boyfriends and fiances but I would never want to date them.

When this information came spilling out of my mouth and was met with,
“Well they wouldn’t want to date you either,”
I replied,
“Exactly!”

goodnight from me, le pacifiste.





iran.

15 06 2009

I am so taken with the media coverage of the Iranian election.  It’s crazy what’s happening.  After an 85% voter turnout, thousands of people have been protesting and rioting in the streets for days on end.  I think it’s both terrifying and beautiful - the chaos, the massive crowds, the violence, and the passion for some semblance of justice.

In a completely irreverent  and honest aside, part of my interest likely stems from the fact that so many of the images of protestors feature attractive young Mousavi supporters.  There are so many smokin’ hot politically charged men and women over there.

I could try to pretend that my brain works in some different, more elite and politically correct fashion.  But deep down I know my gray matter, like that of all humans, is wired to respond to images of beautiful people.   (And then there is my innate attraction to olive and brown skinned folks, which I admit freely and can only assume is biologically influenced.  Why wouldn’t I, whitey mcpalersons, want my hypothetical future children to have a fighting chance against the sun’s searing rays? )

So yes, i’m bewildered by it all -  intellectually, politically, and aesthetically.





sinus infection, shmynus infection.

27 05 2009

so my nose is working overtime and my voice sounds like a baritone’s rather than my normal soprano.
so what?

yesterday i had what can be defined as a close-to-perfect day off from work.  I …
1. slept in.
2. went to the beach for a picture perfect day with one of my very best girls. 
3. went to the gym too late for my class, so I squeezed in a climate controlled run instead.
4. chopped up delicious fruit, showered, and went to a new friend’s house for wee cookout of sorts (and by cookout I do mean making good use of a george foreman grill).

aaaaaand

today i’m having such a brilliant hair day that it really is distracting me from how much i have had to blow my nose.  plus, i am taking my first ever trip to a real spa with one of my other best girls for our birthday indulgences – only 3.5 months late!

then tomorrow, i get to party down in what i’m pretty sure is one of the lovliest places not on the water in Charleston with a few musical geniuses

the demons in my sinuses will not keep me down!





evermore and evermore.

25 05 2009

A few days ago I read how one parish was using a midweek study group to focus on the hymnal.  The group will ”look at the lyrics, the life and impact of poet and composer, as well as the theology” of one of the hymns planned for the following Sunday’s service.   The description of the study acknowledges that in addition to the Holy Bible and Book of Common Prayer, The Hymnal is a key element in the Anglican tradition –  informing “our faith, beliefs, opinions, and practices.”  Certainly, the Bible comes first and carries the most importance and significance.  However, the hymnal is the third book that shapes the Anglican worship experience, and that is a pretty big deal. 

There is, next to the Bible and the Book of Common Prayer, a third book which informs

I find this outlook so appealing.   At any given moment if not involved in conversation, I am more than likely humming, whistling, or singing something – usually whatever song happens to be in my head.  Sometimes it is a stupid pop song, sometimes a righteous indie rock tune.   Today it is a hymn and this hymn phenomenon is not so infrequent for me.   

For me,  praise in song is one of the most natural and satisfying forms of worship.  Often, it isn’t until I hear scripture set in the context of melody and harmony that meaning and application of the Word becomes clear, and for better or worse I am much more likely to be able to sing you a hymn from memory than I am to recite verses of scripture. 

The Hymnal is a book of eloquent poems, prayers, and praises - many with significant and historic roots.  As I study the writings of the saints and apostles who have come before me, shouldn’t I also study the hymns they wrote? 

I think another reason I am such a sucker for these old traditional hymns is the beautiful archaic syntax and vocabulary they display.  As with Rite I worship, the nerd in me revels in words and phrases that I do not hear anywhere else:  verily, ere, “it is meet and right so to do,”  and all the humble beseeching that occurs. 

Today I have been humming  Of the Father’s Love Begotten.  Not only is the translation totally mid-Nineteenth century, but the tune is a plain-song ditty from the Twelfth Century.  That’s right.  Some monks came up with this melody 900 years ago, and I am still singing it today.  Chew on that, Britney.

Of the Father’s love begotten
Ere the worlds began to be,
He is Alpha and Omega,
He the Source, the Ending He,
Of the things that are, that have been,
And that future years shall see
Evermore and evermore.

Oh, that birth forever blessed
When the Virgin, full of grace,
By the Holy Ghost conceiving,
Bare the Savior of our race,
And the Babe, the world’s Redeemer,
First revealed His sacred face
Evermore and evermore.

O ye heights of heaven, adore Him;
Angel hosts, His praises sing;
Powers, dominions, bow before Him
And extol our God and King.
Let no tongue on earth be silent,
Every voice in concert ring
Evermore and evermore.

This is He whom Heaven-taught singers
Sang of old with one accord;
Whom the Scriptures of the prophets
Promised in their faithful word.
Now He shines, the Long-expected;
Let creation praise its Lord
Evermore and evermore.

Christ, to Thee, with God the Father,
And, O Holy Ghost, to Thee
Hymn and chant and high thanksgiving
And unending praises be,
Honor, glory, and dominion,
And eternal victory
Evermore and evermore.





three good things.

23 05 2009

1.  what do you do on a Friday night after 12 hours of work, enjoying a bit of the free outdoor symphony performance (featuring some downright brilliant tromboning), and realizing that a sinus infection is about to take over your brain for a few days?  well, i discover something cheesy and cute and perfect on hulu.

Glee

it’s a glorified, grittier version of high school musical and that is alright with me.

2.  This morning at the Farmers Market I purchased a tub of solidly red, delicious strawberries from my fav strawberry farmers aaaaand my very first local tomato of the season.  I’m pretty stinkin’ excited ’bout the ‘mater.  It’s still pretty early for tomatoes, so I only got the one that looked the very reddest and juciest.  I’m already fantasizing about the delicious sandwiches I have to look forward to this week. 

3.  Overtime.  Two pay periods in a row.  Alleluia.





eat your veggies.

12 05 2009

i totally just devoured an entire bag of frozen broccoli and cheese.

an entire bag.

135 calories, yo.

this junk is amazing.  i am so. freaking. full.





so do la ti do re do.

10 05 2009

true story: i found myself crying about 1:10 minutes into this.





someone hand me paper bag.

1 05 2009

so i’m pretty sure i almost hyperventilated on my way to work this morning.  there is a jasmine bloom boom going down on Anson Street and it was all i could do to keep from falling off my bike as I rode through the aromatic spectacle just before 8:00am. 

i become a fool around the jasmine.  i feel this urgent need to appreciate it as much as possible which means breathing in as much as possible which means nearly hyperventilating.  

slick, i am not.

 

(so yeah, the jasmine is back, and i’m still here.  it’s alright.)





the girl in the blue dress with a power drill in her bicycle basket.

29 04 2009

Renting and using a power drill to install blinds in my room all by myself feels almost as empowering as changing a flat tire when I’m alone at 11 o’clock at night.  Accomplishing new things on my own gives me a huge sense of satisfaction.  I’m like a preschool kid who desperately seeks opportunities to excercise her growing independence.

These piddly little events make me feel more certain that I am okay – that I am going to get along fine in this life.  I know that thought is essentially ridiculous – that performing my own manual labor makes me feel validated –  that doesn’t make it any less true.

the means and the end.

the means and the end.